Sunday, December 10, 2006

Destined for...

I know it has been a while since I last posted. It has been a difficult time for me to try and decide what to blog about, there have been so many things on my mind. As most of you that read my blog know that my position with Verizon was done away with after 13 years. So this leaves me trying to figure out how to move forward.

I have always felt that I was destined for more. I have loved my job with Verizon but always felt it was just that. A job. I have always had big dreams for myself but have never really gone for them. I always seem to do what seems the "safest".

As I am faced with this change in my future, the first decision I have to make is if I want to try and stay with Verizon or not. As I struggle with this decision I go back and forth on whether or not it is the time for me to move on and chase some of my other dreams.

At this point it is worth me noting that I have always felt I could succeed at anything I do. But as I go through this that one question keeps coming up in the back of my head, "What if?".

"What if?" is simply the fear of the unknown. I mean I could probably get a job within Verizon and keep doing just as I do. But then again that "What if?" pops into my head again. Only this time the thought is "What if I passed up a great opportunity to change careers"?

I don't know what I am going to do. For now I am exploring both options. I just hope that whatever I do will be the right thing. There certainly is a lot to weigh as I try to make my decision. I am pretty sure that however I decide to move forward I will be successful but it sure is a tough decision to make.